Sing a New Song

One of the difficult things about being new in town is that developing closeness takes time, especially for men. But we need people who can help us shoulder our burdens. Jesus proclaimed a Kingdom and built a church to found it, not just a bunch of solo Christians scattered around.

I was practicing music for Sunday today and realized I needed to spend more time praying, but I was having trouble being honest with myself. Sometimes I can sort of bypass my defense mechanisms and get to my actual feelings by songwriting. This is what came out.

"Supposed to Be Light"

Maybe it's silly for a man in my position--

With a wife and kids and a job--

To sit around moping about his lonely condition.

Let's call it praying to God.

But everybody understands what it's like to feel it;

There's no solution all the time.

But no one wants to face it. All we do is conceal it.

So I'm facing mine.

Child, how long can you go 

With this weight on your back?

I've been watching you slowly

Move down the track.

Child, this ain't doing it right.

Child, my burden's supposed to be light.

But what am I supposed to do to protect my reputation?

I can't be honest that way.

And where do I find the time to make that kind of conversation?

And what would people say?

Maybe I could find a priest to hear confession,

But all I really want is a friend,

No walls between us or the duties of the profession,

Just someone sitting in while I mend.

Child, how long can you go 

With this weight on your back?

I've been watching you slowly

Move down the track.

Child, this ain't doing it right.

Child, my burden's supposed to be light.

Everybody already knows what the solution is,

It's just something I don't like.

But hey, if you're my brother, please, respond to this.

Let's just go out for a bite.